Thank you for your encouraging comments.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I did make it through the day, sneezing and all.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Although this isn’t a blog about my quest to go without sugar, I just have to talk about it for a bit more before I can move on.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 So, if this bores you, just click on to someone more interesting, ok?<\/p>\n
This has nothing to do with religion, this quest.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 It’s really to prove to myself that I can do something.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 And, yes, I’d like to lose some weight in the process.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 My last three attempts to lose weight have failed, and I find myself stuck at the same weight as I have been for about two years now.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 It’s hard on your self esteem, when you try and try again and find yourself failing time after time.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I realized that food is\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 controlling me.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 When I walk through the kitchen and see a half eaten pop tart, I would pick it up and eat it.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Whether I was hungry or not.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I hadn’t thought before how much I would like a pop tart, but there it was on the counter and I didn’t want to waste it, so PoP it would go, into my mouth.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Yesterday, someone toasted a pop tart and then realized that there were waffles in the freezer, so they gave the pop tart to John, and ate waffles instead.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 John, being the picky eater that he is, left the pop tart on the counter.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I had to walk by it several times, and finally I asked him if he even wanted it.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 He said no, and I (brace yourself!) THREW THE POP TART AWAY.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 That, my friend, is the kind of self control I want to have all the time.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I want to be the kind of person who can throw a pop tart or a cookie or whatever half eaten food is there– away.<\/p>\n
I keep dreaming that I’m eating sugary things.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 First it was a donut.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 In my dream, I was talking to Tess, and I absentmindedly picked up a donut and just ate it.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Then I freaked out–thinking, did I just eat that donut?!\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Why did I do that?\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Last night I dreamed I was on the Disney Cruise with Lisa and her family.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I ate and I ate and I ate.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 When I woke up, I’d think, did I really eat that food?\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 NO, it was a dream.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Thank goodness.<\/p>\n
So, yes, I am a little bit obsessive about this thing right now, and I’ll try not to go on and on and on about it from now on, but even though I’ve only lost a pound so far, I think this is a healthy thing to do, and hopefully it will be good for my self esteem to be able to stick to a commitment and prove to myself that food is not the boss of me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Thank you for your encouraging comments.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 I did make it through the day, sneezing and all.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 Although this isn’t a blog about my quest to go without sugar, I just have to talk about it for a bit more before I can move on.\u00c3\u201a\u00c2\u00a0 So, if this bores you, just click on to someone more […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/475"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=475"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/475\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=475"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=475"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paige.ericksonfamily.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=475"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}